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It’s been a while since the last time I wrote in this blog. I look to myself and I realise that I have been through so many things….. I’m just like a butterfly - metamorphose….

I was just a little girl - even a spoiled little girl. I cried when people didn’t treat me well, even I cried though they treated me well but I just didn’t like it.  But then I grow….

Now, I have learned so much… I have been in many points of my life - I’ve been in the top and bottom of my life. I understand what is position and power behind it. I understand what is money and power behind it. I understand what is character and power behind human characters. I understand what is failure and success. I understand being envied by others and being admired by others. I understand the value of time and the value of every decision I make. I know how it feels at the top and the bottom of my life….. I know it all… but, it all means nothing….. nothing at all…. cos I understand one thing, that the most important thing in life is LOVE and HAPPINESS…..

I can have position, power, money, and all good things in my life, but when I don’t have love - my life is just an empty life……. It is LOVE that fills my life and makes everything worth to fight for…. Love of God (the unfailing life), Love of my family, Love of my friends, and ya…. but this is also the thing that I never understand - it’s just a mystery…………….

LIFE is fun
LIFE is complicated
LIFE is challenging
but most of all LIFE is a GRACE…….

One year is a really short time. I was elected as IPSF President last year and now I have finished my term.

It has been a though year for me and I have learned a lot:
- Dealing with 11 strong Executives from various background (country, age, etc.)
- Dealing with the professionals
- Dealing with members around the world
- Chairing IPSF General Assembly
- Travelling all around the world without rest
- Replying to thousands of emails in few days
- Dealing with administrative
- Moving from Indonesia to Netherlands

Though it wasn’t an easy year esp. since I lost my wonderful grandma when I had to attend WHO Executive Board in Switzerland and I suddenly have to takeover my family business. I’m grateful that I have passed it…. Thank God for His grace, I wouldn’t be able to survive without him.

All these things that has happened to me have thought me to be even stronger. I realise that I have so many weak areas and I really need God to help me out.

Now I will move back to Indonesia to take care of my family and continue my study. Hopefully, I will be a pharmacist next year…. I know my new life wouldn’t be easy as well - I realise there will always be pressures, but when God is with me, nothing is matter for me!

It will be a new life, a new hope, and a new challange…. and I will make it !!

My life will be a happy-ending story with God above all….

My term as IPSF President has finished….. now I’m officially the IPSF Immediate Past President.

It has been a though year! There has been so many things I need to deal during the year, I have learnt a lot.
- dealing with strong executive from various backgrounds (country, age, situation)
- dealing with the professionals
- dealing with IPSF members
- chairing the General Assembly
- travelling all over the world
- thousands of emails in few days
- and many many other things……

I am grateful for this position, though it wasn’t easy esp. when I have to loose my grandma when I was in Switzerland and when I suddenly have to takeover my family’s business….

It was the hardest time of your life but at the same time, you just have to think and still run the Federation. I realise that I might have done better but with all the situation I have to face… I know it’s already with God’s grace.

I just learned that I have to be even stronger!!!

Now I have finished. A new life will soon start….  taking care of my family, back to school, and many many other things…..  I know it wouldn’t be an easy life but I believe it will be a happy-ending story with God above all.

and yes, it’s a new life, a new hope, and a new challenge….

The best place to be is anywhere with GOD….. nothing can compare it.

Everytime I think of You, I’m just more and more amazed. How could a God like You came to world and died just to save people like me, so that I may live even abundantly.

I thank You for every love you have given. Many people are wondering to get a real love, the truth is it’s so near.. that they don’t have to go out and search. It’s wrap very simple…. which people think too simple.

I know my life is in Your hand and You have a bright future for me. Lord, help me to fulfil my destiny in You… that people may see You in me and me in You.

Lead me, guide me…. that I always walk on Your way. This is my desire to please Your heart forever….. Love You so much Lord!

God…. please help….. I need your wisdom. There is nothing in the world that I can do without You, and there is nothing in the world that I can’t do when I’m with You.

Mistakes were made, many times I forget You again and again. but not in any single moment You left me behind. Not in a second.

Sometimes, I feel I’m all alone, fighting for things that I don’t share to people. They thought I do many many good things but in the same time other people thought I do nothing. The truth is… I’m not alone and whatever I do, I do it for You.

Lord, the moment I’m aware of You is the best moment in life.

I’m stucked with many many things in my head while so many things keep going on. But in my thousands emails, the best thing is when I stop and I am aware that You’re near.

Many things happen in my life that no one know but You see Lord. I hide nothing from You - all good and bad in life.

I’m sorry Lord that many times I make you sad, that I do things that doesn’t please You. I’m really sorry….

Let your grace fall upon me God… I don’t want anything kept me away from You. No way…. Things happen but there is power in every decision. and I have decided I’m going to make a stand… I have decided to pledge my life for You.

"What you know helps you to make decisions, but only your decisions that change your life"

Many times we know what decisions to make, but many times we know we didn’t do it just because it’s hard.

Always remember though it’s hard, you can make that right decisions. So, take it and don’t wait till it get worse…. take it and don’t let anything doubt you.

Ilmu paksa lah ya………… jelek namanya but it’s help though!

God never promise an easy life, He only promise He holds you in His hands…

I’m safe in Your hands Lord. World may fall but I will stand still with You. I love You so much…………

Thank you for giving me your grace and strengthen me through people though they are far away…  Bless them abundantly Lord. I can’t return anything back to them… but You know the best for them. my wish my prayer is that as they have blessed me, You will bless them 100 times fold.

Open my eyes to the work of Your hands Lord….. Open my eyes as my will is to live for You.

I love You so much… I love You so much… that no word in this world could express my heart. Nothing can seperate me from Your love. Nothing nothing…. Hold my hands Lord that I may walk with You. Teach me Lord that I may please you…Mold me Lord ’till I be more and more like You….

I live for you, every beat of my heart is dedicated for You. Open my eyes to the work of Your hands Lord that Your will be done in my life…

In my life Your will be done….. In my life Your will be done whatever it may costs. I love You dear Lord… love You so much…

Just one touch from God, it’s more than enough to face everything… Kuatkan kakiku Tuhan untuk berdiri teguh mengejar janji-Mu. Aku tahu, Engkau setia dan janji-Mu ya dan amin. Biarkan aku tarik janji-Mu untuk ubah imanku menjadi fakta.

I live not from what the world said, but from Your words. Biarkan harapanku dan kerinduanku hanya Engkau… I love You so much, that’s what keeps me going.